jaded_imp

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 04:42:15 GMT

P.S. I miss everyone

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 04:40:59 GMT

I am with family. Things are ok thus far. Haven't really spoken to dad, therfore no fights yets. I am keeping fingers crossed.

Also BK is not working >:(

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 05:04:02 GMT

I've been home for a few days now. So glad to be gone, even though I know what I am leaving them to.

But they brought it on themselves by always being the way they are. Ignoring problems as long as someone else is there to pick up the pieces. Everyone who used to do that is either broken or not there. That is why they are having problems now. I hope they don't break Beth while I am gone.

I don't feel guilty about leaving. I am just gonna have to make it the best I can here because i know it is falling apart there.

Need to write a resume. Want a job. I want to feel like a worth while person and I think making my own money will go a long way in that direction. I have worked before, but it was for dad, which doesn't count.

Tue, 01 May 2007 18:20:29 GMT

I miss you guys.

and i miss my babies.

Curse you BK!!

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 05:34:59 GMT

Your answers have been received
To the riddles I conceived,
And I have looked o'er them
To approve or condemn
The success that you have achieved.

I offer you congratulations!
For to the riddles three,
All the answers you've sent me
Are correct, I agree.
Your work quite exceeds expectations!

~*~ The Sphinx ~*~

YAY us!

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 23:38:21 GMT

spent the day with mom in the hospital...
she's not doing any better just no point in keeping her there...
that is about it...

How are my rats?

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 04:07:26 GMT

It was my little sister's birthday three days ago and I COMPLETELY forgot!

Worse still I think I was talking to her online then and I didn't say anything. I will call her tomorrow. She is having her party tomorrow. Does it still count then? Do I get her a guilt gift? I already have her a cool christmas present. Granted not as cool as an anime series, but still cool. It is a big stuffed cat. The one that randomly shows up in every episode of Trigun for no good reason. I other news I am horribly horribly addicted to Darren's computer. Specifically the computer game Oblivion. Damn addictive elder scrolls.

*Whines* I wanna make more potions! And pick more mushrooms! I just have a thing for ingredient gathering. I don't like dungeon diving as much. The undead scare me. ~~Now I feel like Lynsey playing Zelda...~~ They really shouldn't since I cheat and use god mode. It is mainly because there is no weight limit on god mode. But things not killing you is a great plus.

No sleepies

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 08:20:16 GMT

So I have been up all night doing stuff and occasionally taking breaks to try sleeping. Sleeping didn't work out. I just lay there feeling restless. I tried breathing and concentration exercises to get me to sleep. Made me more awake. Mondays are long days for me. I don't know if I can make it all the way through.

Wed, 31 May 2006 02:58:52 GMT

up, down, up, down

I wish I could at least be up when my friends are down to help them out.

I wish my hair would stop falling out.

Fri, 26 May 2006 02:54:58 GMT

I have been feeling better as of late. I hope the trend continues

Thu, 18 May 2006 01:13:53 GMT

SO today was a better day. I hope they keep getting better.

AND

Sammy is pregnant, so that means....

LOTS OF BABY RATTIES!!!

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 20:44:29 GMT

I won't be posting or reading any online journals for a while. If you want to know what's new with me call me up and ask And I will do like wise.

Well there goes my entire mid term break

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 02:24:15 GMT

Friday Fed 17
Last day of school
I went to all my classes and handed in my English paper. It was not the best paper I have ever writen. Trufuly I think it sucked, but I had procastinated on doing it so it was own fault. After school I took the recycling that had piled up the the recycling center only to find out that they have the WORST recycling program I have ever seen. They take al forms of beaverage glass, even special imported bottles, BUT NO OTHER TYPES OF GLASS!! They take platic drink bottles and plactized paper drink boxes, (this is the only place I have seen that), BUT NO OTHER RECYCLABLE PLASTIC PRODUCTS!!They take dirty newspaper, pretty white office paper, and cardboard, but the kind with crinkles in middle, NO OTHER KIND!!
I was very frustrated.
I did something with Darren and Mike later in the evening. I don't remember what though.

Saturday Fed 18
I slept in, even though I really wanted to go to Mustang Sally's for lunch, just couldn't make it to save my life. When out for Sushi wiht Stephen around 4:30ish though, which was cool. Went back to his house to watch my new trigun, only to find out it has terrible picture quality and really sucky mispelt subtitles. Went home around 9 to do some cleaning because there were a bunch of people coming over. Started cleaning, cat was drving me nuts, Tara called said she wasn't coming home, put the cat way since then I knew she would not be home to look after it. Stayed up cleaning until three, but I took a break for a pizza I ordered. Stoped cleaning at 3, partly becuz I was tired, and partly because I didn't think the neighbours would like me vacuming at 3am.

Sunday Feb 19
Got up early, didn't really sleep, started vacuming again. I had to take lots of breaks because I was getting tired, but I just assumed it was because I hadn't slept well. Make is all the way to vacuming the kitchen, which was INCRIBLY messy. I really need to havea talk with Tara about keeping the house clean. I couldn't continue, i was starting to feel weird at the point so I lef the vacume there in case I came back. I went to bed and didn't come back. In fact it was all I could do get out of bed to call Darren to say I was sick and he would have ot get his own ride down. He said he could, so that was good. I was hoping that Tara would see the vacume and the messy kitchen floor and take the hint. She didn't. i had to crwal out of bed to ask her. But things got clean and DnD went ahead and I think everyone had a good time, or at least I asume from the laughting and stuf I heard.

Monday Feb 20
I haven't eaten or drank anything since the pizza. I can't get out of bed, I can barely move and my throat is so sore that even if I could make it to the phone I can't talk. Spend the day semi-conscious in bed, but no sleep really, I can't sleep, feel like the fever is doing something to my head. The bactiria and building furniture in my throat and moving in. I think I had a lot of delusionary thoughts that day. In the evening I am feeling well enough to steal Tara's juice and drink water. All this time I am breaking out into hives. I don't know from what, it is something in the house. I couldn't sleep at all that night, kept choking on my own spit and flem and god know's what else. Eitherway I have to swallow to clear is, and that wakes me right up. Turns out in order to breath I have to be concious and put a lot of effort into it.

I'll finsh this tomorrow. I am tired now. It gets better though.

Blood sugar rollarcoaster

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 16:21:15 GMT

Well I think I finally have a bit of my bi-polarness figured out.

If my blood sugar dips I get really depressed. If it goes too high I get sleepy or hyper, figure that one out.
If I go to long with out eating, I can't eat, or really reallly really don't want to. Either way it is a vicious circle.
And sometimes about it is making me fat. I think it is because I am not motivated to cook until I am hungry, and then I don't want to wait until it is ready. I want food right then. Plus I HATE cooking. This leads to a lot of pizza eating. It is fairly cheap and fast and I don't have ot cook it. And it is SO yummy.

So.... I don't know

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 03:10:51 GMT

Well....
I don't know what to say...

Dad wants me to get another roommate. I don't want one. I like the one I have as a friend, but she is a bit to messy for my taste and her cat drives me nuts. She is a very good roommate besides that, she respects my space and I respect her space. She doesn't throw parties or have people over that I don't know or that I am not comfortable with.

Also I gave the current one a great deal on the room she has now, mainly because she was in a bad situation at the time and she needed an out, but she couldn't afford it at the time. What I am asking is still a lot for her, but it is less then the room is worth. The other room is less then half the size of her room so I would have to ask less, yet again. I don't want to do that. Plus the new person would be upstairs, with me, I also don't want that.

I'm really behind in school work. It is my own fault. I am working towards catching up. I may never get there, but I am going to try. I Just want a better life for myself, but I work against myself at the same time.

I am going to do some math now.

Friendships

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 02:58:54 GMT

To Whom It May Concern:

This might be taken to apply to two people. One is a person that I have already had a conversation about this through LJ already. That was a long while back. She understood and if she ever reads this, just for general interest, your compliance is appreciated, but what I said still stands, and will always stand.

For the other, well I’ll just break it down for you.

I don’t care if you read this journal.
I don’t care if you comment; though I think I now have anonymous comments screened now anyhow.
I don’t care what you do or don’t do, what you say or don’t say, I want NOTHING to do with you EVER again.

NOTHING!

EVER!

It is not about forgiveness, it is not about what you have done, about what you are doing, or about what you will do.

It is about me having respect for myself.

Not letting people in my life who use, and you used me, but I was ok with that as long as I thought or could see you going somewhere with life. You didn’t.
Not letting people in my life who lie, and you lied; a hell of a lot.
Not letting people in my life who manipulate, and looking back, it seems that is all you did.

When I am a friend I try my best to be a damn good friend because friends are really, really important to me. Good friends are hard to find, and bad ones can be a bitch to get rid of.

If you go on to straighten up your life, good for you, don’t contact me.
If you go on to majorly fuck-up your life, take responsibility for it, and don’t contact me.
If you go on to win the 649 multi-million-dollar lotto, congratulations, and don’t contact me.

You had your chance, you blew it, and I haven’t been interested in having contact with you since the first day I told you it was over.

I do not want to have anything to do with you.

I love friends

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 06:47:07 GMT

Today (well yesterday and today in the early am) has been an odd, odd day. Especially in the way of journal entries and comments.

Friday night was fun, DDRing, and board game fun, which is really fun when you win. I was on a team with Stef and Tara, we won 4 out of 5 games, which was good, because Stef hates losing, and she hits hard.

In the last 3 hours I have received to comments on journals that I wrote a while back. One was about two years ago and one about 3 months ago. One was nice and a nice surprise. The other was also unexpect, but not so nice.

Weird

I really like the friends I have now. They are all good people that have their heads on fairly straight. I think the type of people you have in you life can really make a difference to who you are and how you feel about life and everything in it.

I know I am very lucky.

best day in a long time

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 02:21:09 GMT

Today was a good day.
Nothing wonderful happened, it was just a nice day of kicking back and relaxing. Which, oddly enough, envolved a lot of cleaning. I like having a clean house. It makes me feel good. An organized house is also really good. I just like knowing where everything is, and it takes me a while to get organized.

Sigh, it isn't the cat's fault I am crazy the way I am, but it is nice to have my house to myself for a while.

cats

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 18:19:15 GMT

They are furry and pure nuisances.
So why are they so cute?
It must be a survival adaptation.
When humans were stupid (well more then they are now) kitties must have become extra cute as to not be killed.
She is still destroying stuff.
I may offer to go halves on getting her claws done.

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 02:57:04 GMT

So I paid my outstanding balance to MUN.
Now I have the classes I want.
I really really hope that they give me back the money all the same, simply because then I won't have to worry about paying for the winter semester.

It's a joke, it's ironic, but I'm not laughing

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 16:10:32 GMT

Fun, fun, and more fun at MUN.

Tried to sign up for my classes today.

Can't.

Why?

Outstanding balance.

My fucking appeal?

Still being heard.

So.

$1300 in debt

Have to pay that off before I can get another $1300 dollars in debt.

Life is fun.

And funny.

But I'm not laughing.

Kitty Rescue

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 20:42:39 GMT

Today was the second time I had to rescue a cat from a drug filled environment brought about by someone's poor life choices.
Oddly enough, I think that both times the reason these individuals got cats is because they were slowly alienating all of their non-druggie friends. I can understand wanting the love of an animal and most animals will love you even if you treat them badly, but I still feel if you are not in a position to look after the animal properly, or you know that your life is unstable you should not get an animal just to make yourself feel better.

It is really ironic because the girl responsible for putting an animal in the way of danger this time was also the girl responsible for getting people together to get a couple of kittens out of a drug filled environment last time. Logic and reason do not apply here folks.

Anyway, this rescue went a lot smoother, but it took a lot longer. We started at 9am and did not get the cat back until 3:30pm. However during that time we managed to burn up my gas, bother a lot of good people that I sort of knew would nto be able to help us and then ended up finally getting permission to take the cat back, only to find no one home. Do not fear. We went back later and they just let us take the cat, and now she is here. It may only be temporary though, but here is a better temporary home then there.

Irony rules, as do rescues, as long as no one gets hurt

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 04:05:07 GMT

Tomorrow, well today technically, but I plan to sleep between now and then, project rescue 2 goes into effect.
It is really ironic, if I were to name all the people involved.
Life's like that.
If it goes well I will write a detailed post about it.

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 04:12:39 GMT

I have a roommate now.

i guess that is it.

I can make a bed!

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 03:10:51 GMT

I did it. I did it all by my girlie little self.
I put together my bed frame, AND I managed to put the mattresses on it all by myself.
I am very proud.